Little Girls with Big Dreams

Personal growth happens on many levels. For me, I mostly lean into Vision, Dreams, Desires and follow that path, which is important, because if I stay focused on my personal challenges or fears, I can become stuck. It is beneficial to occasionally go back in time—it can provide information, context and data on our beliefs & mindset—but we must be present and also cast our vision for our future.

Vision always helps me move forward, but at times, it is helpful to take a look back and to learn and grow (which requires grace, compassion and love).

I recently had an experience that I want to share with you. I was guided through an experience that made me realize how far I have come. I am sharing with you because it would be a great exercise for you to do, to not only embrace your inner child, but also to understand the woman you have become. You hold such power, you have such strength and there are times you don’t feel it because you still hold on to that inner child which is also a good thing, because she is part of you. What is so empowering is that not only will this encourage you and the woman you have become, it will also encourage you to step forward and keep on becoming. Sometimes becoming is an unbecoming, it really depends on each person and what it is we need to work on. For some it is creating more,and for others it is letting go and releasing what no longer serves them (for most, it is a combination of both). Our lives are seasonal and each season and phase brings not only new opportunities but also challenges and that is the wonder and beauty of it all.

Let me share with you the visual experience I was guided through, and perhaps you can do the same for yourself at a time where you can quiet your mind, relax and lay down, close your eyes and put yourself in the same situation.

In my minds eye, I was brought back to my childhood home (as an adult, me today). I stood in front of the home, I opened the front door, I moved my way to my childhood bedroom. As I opened the door to my childhood bedroom, the little girl version of me was sitting on my bed. I was told that I was me, and the little girl was me then, and we met for the first time and we both knew that we were both me. With that cue, I hugged this darling little girl, we smiled, hugged, and cried happy tears. I told her how beautiful she was, I looked at her with such confidence and I wanted to share her how beautiful her life has been, and I might even have said, “you did it, you let your spirit shine, and you have made this world a better place”. I could not help but think of the humble beginnings this little girl had, she was so well loved,and in spite of that, she was fearful there was never enough and that she was not enough. She also knew she had something special inside of her, she felt it inside and she noticed it when interacting with others, they made her feel special (although her big brothers and sisters kept her in check and would push her down literally and figuratively as the youngest of 5). She would experience that tender balance of being loved by some, and rejected by others, it stayed with her and shaped her experiences. they made her feel special (although her big brothers and sisters kept her in check and would push her down literally and figuratively as the youngest of 5).

I was then guided to my home now (at this point it began to feel like Christmas Carol), I was at the front of my home, with little Pam next to me, I held her hand as we entered my home. It was just the two of us, and I was beaming with delight showing her how we've grown, how all the dreams she held and nurtured over the years have become a reality. She looked at the ocean out the window, and looked back at me as if to say, is this really ours? Yes baby girl it most certainly is. She twirled with delight, dancing and feeling so at home, so free, so loved and so playful. She was safe, she was loved, she was now in my care and she felt that love from me like never before! Little Pam met my family, she laughed in delight at the kids, she looked at Charlie with curiosity and she smiled at me with pride. I told her how proud I was of her,how much I loved her and what a kind, beautiful, loving girl she is. She just hugged me, she did not say anything to me but her expression and movement said it all. She was happy, she was safe, she was loved, she was at home and she was me. Her spirit is strong, and she never understood that until she became an adult.

Mind Blowing!!!!! I actually felt like I met her and the fact that we met as her and as me knowing each other was the same was a mind blowing experience. It felt so real, it felt so incredibly moving and spiritual, it felt like I needed to go back and see her, and also have her travel forward and see me.

If I had any last words it would be this (take in these words yourself)…. Baby Girl, you might be afraid at times, you might feel frustrated, happy, sad, loved and afraid, all of these feelings, they are just that, feelings…. You are so loved, you are safe, you are special, you are kind, you are smart, you are capable of all things, you are worthy, you are mean’t for greatness, you are going to soar! This was an exercise of self love, this was a deep dive in, it was healing, it was meaningful and it was a great opportunity to see how far I have come. This little girl is with me for the duration of my life, I have such confidence and conviction not only for us, but to step up and help so many of you. We all just want to love and be loved. We all need to let our spirits soar, to feel the magic and to bless the mess.

I don’t know that I have ever told her how beautiful she is, how much I love her, how darling she is, how kind, smart, funny and loving she is. I have had that opportunity and I am never going to stop saying it and I am never going to stop dancing with her, hugging her, loving her, and twirling round and round in this magic thing called life.

Let’s do this baby girl! XO